Sunday, 31 July 2016

Aham Brahmasmi

Aham Brahmasmi - it is surprising how much more fun this assertion is when one is able to first see oneself as a mixed bag in reality (as opposed to facile and childish judgement or mere intellectual reckoning), and then increase the size of the mixed bag to basically include every sentient being in it, male, female, animal, everyone - well, maybe not Arvind Kejriwal. I can imagine myself as insidiously wicked and manipulative in some past lifetime, maybe even a pointlessly scheming saas just for the kick of it in a saas-bahu real-life drama, but being a pointlessly wayward fruitcake converting educated people to my image (like the viral program Smith in the Matrix trilogy) goes even beyond my imagination of my past. I digress.
If one does this (greatly inflates the mixed bag, i.e.), two kinds of judgemental people appear equally cute - those who like you and those who dislike you without knowing you adequately - you find it impossible to return the favour because you lose the ability to "judge" yourself, only "see". In this situation, one tends to gravitate towards people who are truly neutral towards you, whether or not they are familiar with you.
Places where people are not even vaguely familiar with you become attractive because of the high probability of neutrality - either that or being entirely alone with not a single soul around you. Being alone in public places surrounded by people who neither know you nor want to know you seems to become an effective form of contemplation in its own right - like witnessing yourself in a neutral manner through distributed computing instead of relying on a single high-power mainframe CPU. There is no such thing as an individual psyche, so self-reflection on one's psyche has to involve distributed computing beyond a certain point.
At this point one simply "sees" the reason for the origin of relative creation with all scope for future doubts annihilated - Aham Brahmasmi, a tautology though it is, simply isn't much fun without multiple copies of oneself!! It is finally about having fun.